The night of December one, two, and three, I could not sleep. I saw thousands of faces. Everywhere I looked were these faces watching me waiting for me to speak. They were expecting Bible lessons from me. I tossed and turned in my bed. How could it be? I had prayed to be a missionary doctor since I was 14. I imagined holding evangelistic meetings and doctoring. I begged God to let me do this yet it seemed I was not to be given such a job. I gave up asking and decided I was to be a full time doctor in Portland, Oregon.

My business was just starting to pick up and I had hopes of being the best family doctor I could be in Portland.

Those three nights God gently was calling me into HIS direct service.

I was reminded of the story of Jonah. I did not want a ride in the belly of a big fish. I would rather trust God. I decided to let go of all my plans and trust God. I did not understand it would stop my practicing in Portland in two years. I figured, I could do both. Now I can see that God had full time work lined up for me. Whenever I am tempted to return to secular employment He very strongly reminds me He has chosen me to to work directly with Him.

I have never had so much fun in my life. He has sent me on some very difficult jobs but the fun comes when I see Him do amazing things. I could not believe my dear Jesus would choose me. After the abuse I had been through I felt like a good for nothing nobody. Jesus saw value in me and He called me like He has called many others.

 I took this picture off my calendar, a painting by Nathan Green, and replaced the picture of a preacher, with my own picture. It was exciting to think that the KING of the universe had picked me. By choosing me, He did not leave out someone, He has brought His truckloads of blessings through my hands. This is not about me but about the KING.  I had the delight of handing out His love to thousands of youth.  I can't tell you how much fun it is! Then He touched thousands more through the web site. You know what? When people are picked to be on a baseball team or soccer team, being chosen first means someone is left out. But when God picks, He does not leave others out. He brings them blessings. There are some who do not understand this and hurt themselves by being envious. Envy poisons the mind. Envy causes hate, bitterness, and disliking anyone that is happy. Envy makes one rejoice when others mourn. Envy can never be quenched.

One day a mother cleaned out her freezer. The three children were watching her in the garage. Feeling playful, the mother tossed ice to one child. The other two wanted some. The mother gave the next one some ice and the first one complained because he did not get as much as the first. Then the third one got his ice and all were in their little buckets of ice. They were miserably cold yet kept begging for more ice so the other one did not have more "blessings" from mother. Envy drove them into their misery.

The cure to envy is to know that all are chosen. Being chosen is about being willing to go where ever God wants and doing any job no matter how impossible it is.  Jesus says in Isaiah 43: 1-4 and 1John 3:1 that He has chosen you and you are precious. 

Maybe God has chosen you to be a farmer, maybe He chose you to be a teacher, a computer programmer, a webmaster, or a lawyer or doctor or nurse. Each morning, you can give your heart to God and repeat the promise : I have chosen you, and  you are precious.

Remember in Zeph. 3:17 God says He even sings about you.